‘Sometimes I Think About Dying’ Review: Daisy Ridley Stars in Rachel Lambert’s Movie About Depression and Social Awkwardness

‘Sometimes I Think About Dying’ Review: Daisy Ridley Stars in Rachel Lambert’s Movie About Depression and Social Awkwardness

Daisy Ridley in Rachel Lambert’s “Generally I Suppose About Dying”.

There’s something actually relatable concerning the post-pandemic feeling of social awkwardness and general dullness in the direction of the remainder of the world that Rachel Lambert was capable of seize together with her new movie Generally I Suppose About Dying. Maybe that is simply me who feels that means, however, regardless that the world has returned to regular for probably the most half, I really feel like a bit of the previous me was misplaced in that three-month lockdown, and particularly the unusual 18 months that adopted. There isn’t any point out that that is the foundation of Fran’s (Daisy Ridley) melancholy and monotony, however there’s additionally little doubt in my thoughts that that is the place the inspiration for the filmmakers. (Kevin Armento, Stefanie Abel Horowitz, and Katy Wright-Mead wrote the script.)

 

For those who had been to ask Fran, she would say that there’s merely nothing fascinating about her. She has discovered her place of consolation in “ghosting by way of life”, because the press notes described it. She goes to work, enjoys watching her workplace mates from afar, although by no means partaking a lot with them, and goes to mattress round 10pm simply so she will be able to begin all around the subsequent day. Through the first two-thirds of the movie, it’s exhausting even to determine if Daisy Ridley is doing an American accent as a result of her character barely interacts with anybody round her. Her distant city on the Oregon coast is painted with a gray-scale colour palette that makes every part round her reinforce that sense of dreariness.

 

However what was first, the rooster or the egg? Has she discovered a way of happiness, or not less than consolation, within the routine and flatness of her days, or was she consumed by them to the purpose the place she now not remembers what actually made her smile? In a single case, she has no motive to hunt a change, regardless of what the non-written norms of our society dictate. Within the different case, breaking the loop could also be what lastly permits her to turn into the individual she desires to be. The title itself, and numerous visions of her useless physique in a distant location, a terrifying signal of not having the ability to contribute something to the world, point out to us that it’s in all probability the latter. The sensation of not being seen is considered one of many components that contribute to a rising need to commit suicide. Nevertheless, the script is rarely totally clear if that’s what she in the end desires, and the mandatory problem for her will come quickly sufficient when the light-spirited Robert (Dave Merheje) sees her by way of the group.

 

Daisy Ridley in Rachel Lambert’s “Generally I Suppose About Dying”.

 

Interacting with Robert will generate loads of social nervousness emotions inside Fran. A part of her is saying that she shouldn’t mess this up, whereas the opposite half is afraid of opening up, an immediately relatable feeling. However that is one thing that we as an viewers notice after watching her for a very long time; what is going to Robert suppose when she will be able to barely utter a phrase? Will he be capable of perceive that she goes means out of her consolation zone, or will he suppose that she is simply not ? There are even factors the place we as an viewers, even after being educated on her internal ideas, begin to query whether or not she really is occupied with him.

 

Daisy Ridley’s methodical efficiency comes throughout as much-ado-about-nothing at first, however because the film progresses and we begin to peel the layers of the Fran onion, we begin to discover the nuances of her portrayal, particularly as her character is pressured to confront herself in conditions she by no means thought she’d see herself not that way back. It wasn’t exhausting for me to attach together with her in conditions the place she’s a part of a social gathering and may’t fairly slot in, the place she looks like an outsider who no one would discover if she all of the sudden vanished. It’s not only a feeling of illustration, however extra about precisely capturing what it’s wish to be like Fran in these situations that made the film work for me.

 

Sometimes I Think About Dying

(L-R) Dave Merheje and Daisy Ridley in Rachel Lambert’s “Generally I Suppose About Dying”.

 

Lambert’s dynamic path helped the unnecessarily stretched script really feel tighter than it’s. On the finish of the day, it’s not a very advanced plot, and it might have run skinny very quick. However it takes a reliable filmmaker to embrace the slowness of the script and make it the pumping coronary heart of the movie. We’re captured by the identical feeling that Fran feels day after day, and Lambert’s digicam work is great at making us really feel like we’re being her. It’s that sense of respect for the character’s state of affairs that she’s capable of convey that helps us relate to Fran; we’re her ethical help, even when she doesn’t know we’re there. We’re her guardian angel: as an viewers, are there for Fran, pulling for her to make the alternatives she must make however doesn’t essentially need to, and mourn by her facet at any time when it doesn’t go the way in which she meant.

 

Generally I Suppose About Dying is an exquisite character exploration that generally feels prefer it’s going nowhere, but it additionally succeeds at making us perceive that for Fran, that is going from 0 to 60 very quickly. It’s an intimate portrayal of what it feels wish to be exterior of the bubble and battle with (discovering a motive for) getting in. I strongly consider there’s a lot right here for individuals who might really feel like they’re in an identical state of affairs, and it’s coupled with an trustworthy message: There may be all the time a motive to get up one other day.

 

Generally I Suppose About Dying is slowly rolling out in US theaters.

 

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